Rebeca Melo

I think my life is going on...I'm getting used to Nill's absence but it's not so good...I hope he is better today enough to come to see me. I'm going to Leão tonight after my class. I am a teacher now and it's great! I like it of a way I never thought I would. having money is great! but I'm feeling so tired lately...I miss something I don't know what it is, miss my mother, miss human warm. I'm typing my poetry, I'm going to participate in a conquest and I'm going to "built" my book. and I'm preparing to present a work on next emel, that will be on May 22th. I think I have enough time to do everything I need to and I want to. so I'm strangely calm, it seems as something is about to happen, good or bad, I'm not sure, I'm completely not sure. I'm getting closer again to God. God bless me anyway. Bye.

hope he comes today, miss him so...since we had come back, he disappears all the time without satisfaction... show up my love, please...

a new year has come... you know, I've done some bad things, silly things with guys...but now I'm ok because Nill came back to me! so pretty! I'm so happy, but we set a meeting yesterday and he didn't show up. on Saturday, he appeared and I've got surprised. So, we talked a lot and we wento to Mirante and there we stayed again! it was like a dream! at night, we went out to Lion, after we drank wine and I got drunk. we stopped on dce bar, it was raining, nobody around and we almost did that. he was really longing for me and it was so good to see! I know we will stop in the bed one day and now he knows I'm not v anymore, he is more daring with me. love him so! my "bag" on extension project got out and I'll teach English on popular course. I'm afraid! with Nill by my side again, I'll get there, for sure! thank God! bye

today, january 23, 2008 it´s time to forget the past, but I can´t get it...it´s so difficult, but I´ll try. my vacations are so boring...let´s do something girl! but I´m dong, I´m talking to my friends by e-mail and orkut. I had an strange dream: I was in some place eith a lot of people, my mother was from isla and she wanted to kill me!! it was a kind of strange very much strange! that´s all. bye

december, 20th 2007 so may things happened in this year...I started to date a guy on november 29, but he finished on last saturday, december 16. it was being so good, I can´t understand why he finished...but I have hope yet. I like him so much, he can´t leave me this way! we passed great moments together... I almost love him! Nill, Nill, don´t leave me, please! next weeken, I´m going to sp, home, to pass chritmas and new-year. but I´ll go back soon. I´m dying to go to the cinema! it will be great! bye.

hj, 21/11/2007 quanto tempo! tanta coisa aconteceu! no dia do meu niver fiquei com o Dnl foi bão d+, mas ele tava querendo aquilo e eu sai fora. ficamos outra vez na final da nico lopes, ai eu falei pra ele que nao ia passar daquilo e ele simplesmente me virou as costas, foi-se. paciencia...vejo-o de vez em quando ... queria ficar novamente...ele bj muito! mas é melhor não... hj tem festa zouk, quero ir, mas não sei se vou achar ingresso... ainda nao decidi se faço o curso de verão...vamos ver, se fizer, vou ter que passar o natal e ano-novo aqui, sozinha.... é preciso pensar, mas acho mesmo que nao vou fazer. tanto trabalho e prova....ontem dei uma aula na aula de didatica, foi legal, mas fiquei muito nervosa...foi em grupo, eu, P e D. 'bye.

quem quer que leia este blog percebe que as datas aparecem erradas...nao consigo acertar, se alguem souber, help me! vou colocar a verdadeira data a partir de hj: 17/10/2007 acabei de ver o blog dele. Só fala de livros... e eu so falo de vida pessoal...cada vez mais me sinto menos. Não tenho lido nada, to sem tempo pra nada, é uma droga. Estou com um livro de saramago emprestado, as intermitencias da morte, meio chato, na verdade, ou entao eu to tao sem saco que to achando o livro um porre. Sem pontuação "correta", a narrativa segue intermitente, tao corrida quanto os fatos narrados. to sem tempo e cabeça pra esse tipo de livro. Ontem D. me ajudou um bocado. ta todo mundo falando que eu emagreci...so se for de passar fome mesmo, pois é o que ta acontecendo...tbm quando eu receber, vou comer ate nao poder mais, so de raiva! sabado vem ai, vamos ver...ninguem lembra e eu detesto ficar dando dicas, como se eu estivesse esperando alguma coisa, mas na verdade to mesmo, esperando u...