Rebeca Melo

I'm feeling bad. ok, it's normal, my mood is up and down but it didn't used to be so frequently. I was going to the library and I met R there. I was with such a bad face that he stopped making jokes and talked seriously, not that much. he asked for help in redação, I thought strange, but it's ok. I'll make him sure that I'm not a bitch with who he can use such a excuse to crew! the men are boring me, I'm getting so angry that I'm able to kill one of them!!!!!!!!!! I'd like to travel by myself to another place, away, with no one known. oh, my God, I'm so coward and money in my pocket is all I want!!! Nill entered in msn yesterday, I think I 've ever told it, no? I need to eat chocolate. it's what I'm going to do. Julian wernt away, I don't know if I'll have Ana's class today, but I think so. Thursday will be Gracia's test and paper! God bless us! I just need to finish the paper, I did almost everything today, in the CA...

hi. I did silly things again...my God, I have to decide my life, definitively. or I change my way or I leave Viçosa. need to decide, for sure! I saw J yesterday, at IPV. he is so cute! my vacations will be here. I don't know if my mother is really coming or no. anyway, I don't care. By the way, I don't care about anything nowadays. bye.

Yesterday I send him an e-mail finishing, not finishing at all, but finishing. we met each other on last Friday, but he simply ignored me, he didn't care about my presence there, on dce. I felt so small...but now I'm not sad, I'm feeling good because I gave an final point, I'm not wiating for him anymore (hope so). but I'll survive this time. let's see if he's gonna answer, I doubt. L's birthday, last 19 day, we passed in the cemitery, it was really crazy. that was V, LP, W(a gothic of my course, calouro), and more two girls I didn't know. LP made a monologue and I said a thing that everybody liked: L, a plural name for a singular person. after, in the day, I gave him a medal that I found near the capela and he liked it a lot, he said it has the são Bento's pray. so, I need to study, bye.

hi. Nill and I stayed last friday, when I called him to appear and he came. we aren´t dating, but we are together somehow. to Emel, I invited Alfredo Bosi (oh!) and He said he couldn't come because he is preparing a travel abroad to first semester of 2009. shame...so, I invited Lêdo Ivo, and he asked to be remimded closer to the event! great! he will come! my father wrote me and I think he knows everything that I told to my mother! Gee! I already answered him. I have some works to do but I´m feeling good and free. I´m saving money because I can´t spend much. Next emester I´ll have time free on Monday and wednesday. cool. bye.

hi. I'm very tired. I went to EMEL last holyday, it was good, it was in Mariana. and guess what? the next will be here, UFV. Great! but we will have a lot of work, mon dieu! I'm sad. In Emel, I thought would have a revival between V and me, but it didn't happen, because he satyed with another girl that he met there. then, I was ok, no problem, but now that I came back, I'm thinking about Nill and I'm really missing him. but somehow, I am conformed. I'd like he appears here to talk to me, but I don't know if he's gonna come. perhaps... I presented my work about Cecilia Meireles, It was good, no problems just the datashow missing. tomorrow is gonna be my final class in TTC, I'll present a song, it will be good, I'm almost sure I'll teach on Celin next semester. so...that's all. next emel, maybe enel, I'll present a work about Alvares de Azevedo. bye.

hi. I've just got out from TTC, it was good because didn't last much, we had micro classes, mine will be next wednesday. I met L yesterday, she told me that she met Nill and he send me a message by her: he said he likes me a lot, send me a kiss and as soon as he solve his things, he will meet me. I got happy! he really worries about me, I think so. Doesn't matter what D says, because every time I tell something about Nill to her, she say bad things about him, she doesn't even know him! I'm fed up with her! RU is stopped I don't know where I'm going to have lunch, maybe multiuso if it's open. so, bye.

last Sunday Nill came here and asked me a time. I think I already said this, but it's boring me a lot. yesterday I went to Lion with R and she told me her boyfriend saw Nill holding another girl. I don't know what to think, anyway, I don't want to think about it. I'm missing him so bad and if he is staying with someone else, I hope he can decide what he wants as soon as possible. And I hope also that he comes back to me. If it doesn't happen, everything is over for me, I don't want anybody else in my life, at least for while. Today I'll give classes, I took a song to pass to my students, hope they get excited about it. I need to end somethings in Gracia's room still today. Before going to the lion, we passed in a African's party, it was pretty good, Ló was there and I danced zouk but with another guy. It's a sensual sound. I'm stuck in a moment and I can't get out of it. (U2) Bye.