quinta-feira, 17 de setembro de 2009

getting older

hi, how long...I'm still commiting my sins and being protected by God's love, He is all...yesterday I was waiting for a call, I thought I didn't receive any, but then, I looked at my cell phone and there was 2 missed calls...I've got angry and sad, but anyway, let's wait today or tomorrow.
Next Friday Will be "Brega Party" here at Multiuso. I'll go!!
I'm now discovering the pleasure and the pain to be single. The pain I already know since I was a teen...but the pleasure comes with age and time, with experience. So many friends finishing a relationship...I don't know how does it feel to be girlfriend, and it is a thing that I used to want so...now I don't know, it hurts a lot, I mean, any relationship between human beings hurts a lot...for this reason I think maybe it's better being alone, at least for while. I'm getting older, but I'm looking forward to do not worry about it. I am in my best shape in all ways. I just need to conform myself to what I am, who I am. It's a hard task, but I'm learning, I'm learning all the time.
And I feel I'm being tested by people all the time, some people really try to make my faith goes down...people around me are so unfaithful and they think they are happy and right. Who can understand?
I've got a training at editora UFV, I'll have a lot of work to do, but I'll earn! So, I can back to the dentist, I can buy new clothes, my goodness, I'm getting so capitalist, rsrsrs! This is one thing that makes me happy: having money. I used to think that it would be love, only love could make me happy...it is still the truth, but I'm replacing things because love didn't come around to me yet. But I'm gonna wait anyway...a woman always waits, it doesn't matter how long it takes. Bye.